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The question is what drives me?  What are my passions?  What gets me revved and riled up?  What is important to me?  Like so ultimately important that I will sacrifice for it.  Sacrifice personal time, sacrifice my resources, sacrifice my own person ambitions for the benefit of this person, cause or situation?  <\/div>\n
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This comes out of this unnerving feeling that has been welling in me that there is more.  There is more to this life than doing well at the average day in, day out.  Matthew West\u2019s song \u201cMotions\u201d used to play as my ring tone because I loved the lyrics \u201cI don\u2019t want to go through the motions, I don\u2019t want to live one more day without your all-consuming passion inside of me.\u201d Further, Jesus says he will give us \u201cmore and better life than we ever dreamed of\u201d (John 10:10<\/st1:time>, Message).  My life right now is full of incredible blessings; yet, they are all blessings I could have dreamed on my own.  Jesus wants to give more life than just that.  It\u2019s disturbing.  It\u2019s upsetting every quiet moment of reflection that I have.  I want to suppress it.  I don\u2019t want to talk about it.  Because then, indeed, I will become accountable to step out in action.<\/div>\n
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This started as I mentioned, with a feeling of there being a grander purpose in and for my life.  The working of the Holy Spirit in me, I believe.  And then it morphed.  I started to question.  Questions that rock my whole foundation of what I believe, of my entire spiritual upbringing that started the day of my birth.  I felt compelled to ask \u2018Do I believe this bible that I read?\u2019  \u2018Yikes!\u2019 I think \u2018what would my family and extended family think of me asking this question?\u2019 But I have to and the answer starts to reaffirm something in me.<\/div>\n
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I start formulating my answer by getting to the basics.  Do I believe in God?  In fact I say \u2018speak God if You\u2019re there.\u2019  And faithfully God speaks. \u2018Look at your daughter.\u201d  And I think, \u2018oh how I cherish that girl!\u201d  She is a beautiful blessing.  Could I ever not believe in God when I hold that girl on my lap and look into her eyes?  When I think of the incredible genetics in every single cell of her body? No!  God is magnificently marvelous.  Yes, I believe in God!<\/div>\n
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 Well this is a start; but truly it is just the start.  Even demons believe in God.  The bible tells us this.  So I have to ask \u2018I believe in God, but does it matter?\u2019 And here I know the answer immediately because I so certainly believe in the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life, speaking into my life.  I believe that the human condition is bettered by a belief in the Father God that I\u2019ve learned about my entire life.  I believe that I could live no other way than to believe in the certain Hope that Christianity has to offer.  I am connected to my Creator through the death of Jesus and through the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life and without that I think life is pretty grim.<\/div>\n
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But then there\u2019s more.  I believe in God.  I believe it matters that I accept Jesus Christ as my Savior and Redeemer and choose to follow Him as my life guide.  I believe that God is here to fill the emptiness.  But then, do I believe in prayer?  Like do I really believe that God answers prayer?  And this boils down to do I believe my bible.  And I know the answer.  Because I cannot accept God and Christ and the Holy Spirit without accepting that the bible is truth.  And so, Yes! I believe the bible!<\/div>\n
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And yet this bothers me.  Because the bible is radical.  It expects that Christ-followers will be entirely reformed by their faith and certainly if I truly, like deep in my gut truly, believed that which I claim I do as a Christian, wouldn\u2019t I be reformed?  This unsettles me because if I were reformed I don\u2019t think I would be considering purchasing that excessively luxurious house just down the block.  And I realize that the status quo, even the status quo of an upper-middle class person such as myself, will always just be that: status quo.  Normal<\/st1:city>.  And the more I think about the verse I have loved so much for so long, that I\u2019ve already quoted once in this short expose, I realize I\u2019ll never reach that better life that Jesus wants for me if I just keeping living life like everyone else in my neck of the woods.  Boy oh boy!<\/div>\n
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So I picked up this book sitting under my coffee table that I started but wasn\u2019t really that into.  It\u2019s called Weird, Because normal isn\u2019t working.<\/i>  And even still the beginning really wasn\u2019t anything special.  But the last chapter and the conclusion of this book were worth much more than the $9.99 I paid for it.  This guy starts talking about asking for God to bless you with a burden.  A \u201cdivine burden\u201d that God places on your heart specific to your loves, gifts, talents, passions, positions, etc.  A divine burden that you just can\u2019t ignore, that you have to act on, that revs you up.  A divine burden that will pull you out of living the status quo into living life bent on justice, love, and sacrifice.  A divine burden that will draw you into the more and better life Jesus offers.  And inside (because I\u2019m an introvert, otherwise I think perhaps I may have opened up the windows and shouted it out there too) I scream \u201cI want that!\u201d  <\/div>\n
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And so I hope my world gets turned up side down.  I feel like I\u2019ve turned my faith inside out and come out with more than I started with.  And I feel like if I let God shake me up some more it will loosen up more of the unimportant stuff I\u2019ve greedily shoved into my pockets.  And maybe I\u2019ll start to realize that I don\u2019t even need pockets at all.  I admit, it\u2019s scary to write about because I see it: my life does not reflect a person who 100% believes in the power of God.  And I also see it: the need and desire to live different than the norm.  Not for the sake of living differently than others, but rather because inside I am transformed and I am different.  I think there\u2019s no other way.  Either choose the world of normal, of godlessness, or choose the world of radical freedom that requires me to be all in with the promise of life, abundantly.  <\/div>\n
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(And I want to mention this underlying feeling I\u2019ve got inside while I\u2019m exploring this.  You see, I feel so incredibly blessed with my life traipsing along at a normal course: incredible husband, privilege of education followed by great career I love, beautiful daughter, great extended family and friends.  That\u2019s picture perfect.  But not everyone around me lives so picture perfect.  Our dear friends struggle and it\u2019s heart wrenching.  I\u2019m sure some of your friends, if not yourself, struggle too.  Is it the spouse they can\u2019t seem to meet or the marriage that just fell apart, the school they can\u2019t get into, the job they lost or are unfulfilled in, the child they long for in barrenness, the brokenness or unhealthiness of their extended relationships which are supposed to people of support.  So I have to explore the extended importance of belief that God matters, that God saves.  Because it has to be asked, people are asking it all the time.  Where is God in these situations?  In the Emptiness, where is God?  And the reply forms another question: Is that just it? I am certainly no theologian, but is it that this world has so much emptiness that that\u2019s why we need God \u2013 to fill all those cracks and canyons? )            <\/div>\n
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