{"id":213,"date":"2011-02-08T19:23:00","date_gmt":"2011-02-08T19:23:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/"},"modified":"2011-02-08T19:23:00","modified_gmt":"2011-02-08T19:23:00","slug":"want","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/","title":{"rendered":"Want"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was training for a half-marathon until before Christmas, when I over-did it and strained my knee. <\/span>Since then I have been busy tending to other matters in my life. <\/span>However, this morning, being on holidays in the beautiful weather of South Florida, I started Day 1 of my back to running program (I must say my program is rather vague, but in essence determining that I am ready to be in the head space to get back at it and take the necessary proactive measures to ensure my success, this is what initiating my running program is. <\/span>So as Day 1 of this program, it feels good to be ready to restore myself to an activity I love.) <\/span>So I have just returned from a run\/walk. <\/span>Two months ago I would have scoffed at running for 1 min and walking for 4 minutes. <\/span>But today, I am refreshed. <\/span>This refreshment is so welcome today. <\/span>As I was walking my thoughts were able to collect themselves. <\/span>And below I shall write how my thought processes have worked themselves out.<\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

Yesterday I was thinking about the exciting news of all the dear people around us who are pregnant (can I put it more clearly that indeed in the whole of my heart I am thrilled for them?) <\/span>Yet at the same time it feels odd to share that genuine excitement with a deep sense of want. <\/span>In a way I feel like a child with unruly want, like in a toy shop or a candy shop. <\/span>It is an un-thought-out deep want. <\/span>It feels selfish and at the same time simply so present in my gut. <\/span>I am a woman who likes to make things happen especially when I have strong passions and desires. <\/span>I like to formulate plans and I am dedicated to following through to the end result. <\/span>I can not do that in this situation. <\/span>I want to be pregnant along with our dear friends. <\/span>But it rests out of my control.<\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

I think to the Psalms of David that I have been reading lately. <\/span>Just 2 days ago I wrote how he was so real with God. <\/span>I feel like this deep want inside of me is too selfish to bring before my God. <\/span>But then as I think of David and I realize I can be real before my God. <\/span>How wonderful is that. <\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

So now I plead with you God. <\/span>I ask you from the depths of my heart. <\/span>God I want to be pregnant so badly. <\/span>I want to share with my friends at the same time to be pregnant, because God Ryan and I feel ready to have a baby and God we want a baby and God I want a healthy pregnancy. <\/span>God, why did you allow our pregnancy and our baby to be born in May to be taken from us? <\/span>It is because of your plans, isn\u2019t it? <\/span>But God I still must tell you the longings of my heart. <\/span>Listen to me, oh God. <\/span>I know you hear me when I speak and so I speak plainly to you now: Open my womb to conceive this month, God! <\/span>And Lord while I am in this place, I pray for my wonderful, God-fearing friend* who desires a child also. <\/span>God, do you not know her heart? <\/span>Have you not heard her pleading with you? <\/span>So God, on behalf of her also, I come to You and ask you also to open her womb. <\/span><\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

And as I open my heart plainly to You, so there is no secret between us God, well I return to this place where I know You are faithful and I know You provide. <\/span>So God, provide for Ryan and I as we wait to be pregnant again, as we wait for a healthy baby to hold in our arms. <\/span>Provide patience and wisdom. <\/span>God in this season of want, show us Your face of wisdom, Your arms of compassion, Your heart full of love. <\/span>This is a bumpy road, God, hold me secure so I don\u2019t get too jostled. <\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

So here I have come from disappointment to anger and frustration to sorrow to want. <\/span>It is indeed a bumpy journey, but God I trust You to provide joy along the way and in the \u201cend\u201d a joy that is uncomparable. <\/span> <\/span><\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

Always Your child,<\/p>\n

Cheryl<\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

<\/o:p><\/p>\n

*I am so thankful for the beautiful friends and friendships God so generously provides and I pray for all those women and couples I know who have had miscarriages or are waiting for children, Lord bless them with a healthy pregnancy and baby in the near future.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was training for a half-marathon until before Christmas, when I over-did it and strained my knee. Since then I have been busy tending to other matters in my life. However, this morning, being on […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-213","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"\nWant - Cheryl Rostek<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Want - Cheryl Rostek\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"I was training for a half-marathon until before Christmas, when I over-did it and strained my knee. Since then I have been busy tending to other matters in my life. However, this morning, being on […]\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:url\" content=\"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:site_name\" content=\"Cheryl Rostek\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:publisher\" content=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/authorcherylrostek\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:published_time\" content=\"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00\" \/>\n<meta name=\"author\" content=\"Cheryl Rostek\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:card\" content=\"summary_large_image\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:label1\" content=\"Written by\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data1\" content=\"Cheryl Rostek\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:label2\" content=\"Est. reading time\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data2\" content=\"4 minutes\" \/>\n<script type=\"application\/ld+json\" class=\"yoast-schema-graph\">{\"@context\":\"https:\\\/\\\/schema.org\",\"@graph\":[{\"@type\":\"Article\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/#article\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/\"},\"author\":{\"name\":\"Cheryl Rostek\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a\"},\"headline\":\"Want\",\"datePublished\":\"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00\",\"mainEntityOfPage\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/\"},\"wordCount\":774,\"commentCount\":0,\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"CommentAction\",\"name\":\"Comment\",\"target\":[\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/#respond\"]}]},{\"@type\":\"WebPage\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/\",\"name\":\"Want - Cheryl Rostek\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/#website\"},\"datePublished\":\"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00\",\"author\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a\"},\"breadcrumb\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/#breadcrumb\"},\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"ReadAction\",\"target\":[\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/\"]}]},{\"@type\":\"BreadcrumbList\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/index.php\\\/2011\\\/02\\\/08\\\/want\\\/#breadcrumb\",\"itemListElement\":[{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":1,\"name\":\"Home\",\"item\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/\"},{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":2,\"name\":\"Want\"}]},{\"@type\":\"WebSite\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/#website\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/\",\"name\":\"Cheryl Rostek - Glioblastoma Survivor, Author and Cancer Coach\",\"description\":\"Finding Hope in the Hopeless and Impossible Situations of Life\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"SearchAction\",\"target\":{\"@type\":\"EntryPoint\",\"urlTemplate\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/?s={search_term_string}\"},\"query-input\":{\"@type\":\"PropertyValueSpecification\",\"valueRequired\":true,\"valueName\":\"search_term_string\"}}],\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\"},{\"@type\":\"Person\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/cherylrostek.com\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a\",\"name\":\"Cheryl Rostek\",\"image\":{\"@type\":\"ImageObject\",\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"contentUrl\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"caption\":\"Cheryl Rostek\"}}]}<\/script>\n<!-- \/ Yoast SEO plugin. -->","yoast_head_json":{"title":"Want - Cheryl Rostek","robots":{"index":"index","follow":"follow","max-snippet":"max-snippet:-1","max-image-preview":"max-image-preview:large","max-video-preview":"max-video-preview:-1"},"canonical":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/","og_locale":"en_US","og_type":"article","og_title":"Want - Cheryl Rostek","og_description":"I was training for a half-marathon until before Christmas, when I over-did it and strained my knee. Since then I have been busy tending to other matters in my life. However, this morning, being on […]","og_url":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/","og_site_name":"Cheryl Rostek","article_publisher":"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/authorcherylrostek\/","article_published_time":"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00","author":"Cheryl Rostek","twitter_card":"summary_large_image","twitter_misc":{"Written by":"Cheryl Rostek","Est. reading time":"4 minutes"},"schema":{"@context":"https:\/\/schema.org","@graph":[{"@type":"Article","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/#article","isPartOf":{"@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/"},"author":{"name":"Cheryl Rostek","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/#\/schema\/person\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a"},"headline":"Want","datePublished":"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00","mainEntityOfPage":{"@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/"},"wordCount":774,"commentCount":0,"inLanguage":"en-US","potentialAction":[{"@type":"CommentAction","name":"Comment","target":["https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/#respond"]}]},{"@type":"WebPage","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/","url":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/","name":"Want - Cheryl Rostek","isPartOf":{"@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/#website"},"datePublished":"2011-02-08T19:23:00+00:00","author":{"@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/#\/schema\/person\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a"},"breadcrumb":{"@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/#breadcrumb"},"inLanguage":"en-US","potentialAction":[{"@type":"ReadAction","target":["https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/"]}]},{"@type":"BreadcrumbList","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2011\/02\/08\/want\/#breadcrumb","itemListElement":[{"@type":"ListItem","position":1,"name":"Home","item":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/"},{"@type":"ListItem","position":2,"name":"Want"}]},{"@type":"WebSite","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/#website","url":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/","name":"Cheryl Rostek - Glioblastoma Survivor, Author and Cancer Coach","description":"Finding Hope in the Hopeless and Impossible Situations of Life","potentialAction":[{"@type":"SearchAction","target":{"@type":"EntryPoint","urlTemplate":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/?s={search_term_string}"},"query-input":{"@type":"PropertyValueSpecification","valueRequired":true,"valueName":"search_term_string"}}],"inLanguage":"en-US"},{"@type":"Person","@id":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/#\/schema\/person\/ddb3d653ca2f4b6dcfad77892f0d630a","name":"Cheryl Rostek","image":{"@type":"ImageObject","inLanguage":"en-US","@id":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g","url":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g","contentUrl":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/?s=96&d=mm&r=g","caption":"Cheryl Rostek"}}]}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/213","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=213"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/213\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=213"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=213"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=213"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}