{"id":53,"date":"2018-11-16T20:28:00","date_gmt":"2018-11-16T20:28:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2018\/11\/16\/pause\/"},"modified":"2018-11-16T20:28:00","modified_gmt":"2018-11-16T20:28:00","slug":"pause","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2018\/11\/16\/pause\/","title":{"rendered":"Pause"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><\/p>\n<div>\n<div style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-idpQA3CdQGc\/W-8o3QO1usI\/AAAAAAAAlmE\/SeD6eTQg5E0RjItneC-jgxRa7loImIISgCKgBGAs\/s1600\/IMG_20181116_083218-EFFECTS.jpg\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"><img decoding=\"async\" border=\"0\" data-original-height=\"1200\" data-original-width=\"1600\" height=\"240\" src=\"https:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-idpQA3CdQGc\/W-8o3QO1usI\/AAAAAAAAlmE\/SeD6eTQg5E0RjItneC-jgxRa7loImIISgCKgBGAs\/s320\/IMG_20181116_083218-EFFECTS.jpg\" width=\"320\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am a recovering overachiever.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Being an overachiever is praised in our society.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I thrived in the praise I received for academic achievements.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I hold myself back from listing them right now.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>And in motherhood, well I prided myself in being a capable mother.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I can\u2019t believe myself when I think about the conversations Ryan and I had discussing whether to have a second child.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I was on the \u201cfor\u201d side and he was apprehensive.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I told him not to worry about the infancy stage that he finds so challenging, because I could take care of that myself. Over-achiever, self-sufficient, capable.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Do you think God was trying to teach me something when twins came along and I most certainly could not take care of 2 babies on my own?!<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>(Sorry God for being a slow learner, because oh how I very much tried to still show that I could do it myself.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>As I write these words it kinda (okay\u2026completely) sounds like a tantruming toddler).<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Unfortunately, it took the one step further, brain cancer diagnosis, for me to stop and re-evaluate.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am on a path to discovering the sweetness of being present, of living in the moment, of allowing myself to enjoy life even when it doesn\u2019t meet the metrics of evaluation I place on it.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am learning about my personality through reading <u>The Road Back to You (1)<\/u> , and discovering through reading <u>Getting Well Again (2)<\/u> the attributes of my personality can encourage disease progression.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>When the personality book told me \u201cdon\u2019t wait until you\u2026. are the youngest person in your family to have a heart attack before you ask the question, \u2018Who am I if I\u2019m not my persona?\u2019\u201d<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I sat up straight and took note.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I haven\u2019t had a heart attack; but I kinda think stage 4 brain cancer may be worse.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I need to stop trying to achieve for achievements sake.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I need to learn how to be healthy.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I need to be in tune with myself: body, soul, and mind.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>No more going through the motions. No more living someone else\u2019s idea of greatness.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>No more doing something simply because that\u2019s what\u2019s done.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>This is a challenging, freeing process.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Along this road Psalm 118:24 guides me:<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">\u201cThis is the day that the Lord has made;<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">let us rejoice and be glad in it.\u201d<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">Before the twins were born I chose this to be the verse I would look to when days were tough and I couldn\u2019t find joy.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Did the verse help in these moments? No.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Because how could I find joy in the sleeplessness, in the non-stop nursing, pumping milk, bottle-feeding, diaper changing x 2?<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>How could I find joy when nothing else got done?<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>How could I find joy when a few months later it became nursing, diapers, feeding solid foods, cleaning high chair trays x 2 just to have enough time to repeat the process again?<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>How could I possibly find joy when I was doing SO much and felt like I was doing SO little?<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">I didn\u2019t realize the answer was:<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><b>perspective and choice<\/b>.<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">These days now, I am equally tired, there are still non-stop mouths to feed.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>But I am choosing to be healthy.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am choosing to say \u201cno\u201d to the over-achiever in me.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am choosing to ask for the help I need.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am choosing to accept that I cannot do it all, that it was only ever an illusion when I felt that I could do it all and that the precipitation of serious cancer in my life at age 34 shows this very clearly (3). And what I am finding is the ability to rejoice in each day for what God has given me.<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\">As I sit and write this my computer is sitting on crumbs, the table cluttered with kids\u2019 breakfast dishes, there is so much to be done (always SO much to be done); but the most important task of the day is to choose to find gratitude, to choose to find joy, to choose to be in tune with my soul, and to choose to find praise for God who reveals more truths about me than any personality book ever could.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Some days I <i>feel<\/i> like making these choices for gratitude, joy, self-awareness, praise for God. Often times I do not feel like making these choices; but, I decide to anyways.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>And as I turn my eyes upon Jesus I am able to write words like this:<\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><u>Pause<o:p><\/o:p><\/u><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I pause to find the artist in my soul,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">to find the poetic in my life&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">so I can crack open beauty&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">in the midst of&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">sleepless nights,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">children coughing,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">kids fighting,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">noses dripping,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">groggy dads,&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">moms on the verge of going crazy&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white; margin-bottom: 12.0pt;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and thoughts of terminal cancer pecking in the background.<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">When I pause to breathe<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can be thankful in it all,<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can see the touch of my Creator surround me and&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can remember that&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">it&#8217;s gonna be okay.&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can choose that&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white; margin-bottom: 12.0pt;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">today is a good day.&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">Though everything is calling me&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">to be frantic<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white; margin-bottom: 12.0pt;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white; margin-bottom: 12.0pt;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">pause&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and find peace<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and joy<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and hope<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and love<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white; margin-bottom: 12.0pt;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and more life than I could have ever imagined.<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">Yes,<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I can pause&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">and&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">enjoy&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">this<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">one<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">Sweet<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">Life&nbsp;<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"background: white;\"><span style=\"color: black; font-family: &quot;arial&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;\">I&#8217;ve been given.<o:p><\/o:p><\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: 0in; mso-list: none; tab-stops: .5in; text-indent: 0in;\"><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: .5in; mso-list: l1 level1 lfo2; tab-stops: list .5in; text-indent: -.25in;\"><!--[if !supportLists]--><span style=\"mso-fareast-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\"><span style=\"mso-list: Ignore;\">1)<span style=\"font: 7.0pt &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><\/span><\/span><!--[endif]--><span dir=\"LTR\">The Road Back to You: An enneagram journey to self-discovery.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>By Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile.<\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: .5in; mso-list: l1 level1 lfo2; tab-stops: list .5in; text-indent: -.25in;\"><!--[if !supportLists]--><span style=\"mso-fareast-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\"><span style=\"mso-list: Ignore;\">2)<span style=\"font: 7.0pt &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><\/span><\/span><!--[endif]--><span dir=\"LTR\">Getting Well Again. 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Creighton. <\/span><\/div>\n<div style=\"margin-left: .5in; mso-list: l1 level1 lfo2; tab-stops: list .5in; text-indent: -.25in;\"><!--[if !supportLists]--><span style=\"mso-fareast-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\"><span style=\"mso-list: Ignore;\">3)<span style=\"font: 7.0pt &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><\/span><\/span><!--[endif]--><span dir=\"LTR\">I am NOT saying my personality and the stress of having twins caused cancer.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Be sure to see that I am saying I believe it <i>precipitated<\/i> cancer in my life.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>This idea is supported by O.Carl et al. who states that most people who develop cancer have a stressful event 6 \u2013 18 months prior to diagnosis. <\/span><\/div>\n<div><o:p>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 4) The image is of a beautiful bush I pass by everyday walking Rayna to school.&nbsp; This morning I stopped to enjoy its lovely purple berries (or whatever they are) and this poem came to me.&nbsp; Isn&#8217;t purple just a lovely color?!<\/o:p><\/div>\n<div><o:p><br \/><\/o:p><\/div>\n<div><o:p><br \/><\/o:p><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am a recovering overachiever.&nbsp; Being an overachiever is praised in our society.&nbsp; I thrived in the praise I received for academic achievements.&nbsp; I hold myself back from listing them right now.&nbsp; And in motherhood, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-53","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v27.4 - 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