{"id":54,"date":"2018-11-07T20:38:00","date_gmt":"2018-11-07T20:38:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2018\/11\/07\/who-i-really-am\/"},"modified":"2018-11-07T20:38:00","modified_gmt":"2018-11-07T20:38:00","slug":"who-i-really-am","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cherylrostek.com\/index.php\/2018\/11\/07\/who-i-really-am\/","title":{"rendered":"Who I really am"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-3SoaFRBS8zg\/W-NNdWqcC-I\/AAAAAAAAlb0\/9fScxCiQzfQy45KJzy_dokBO7h5r1wkdACKgBGAs\/s1600\/IMG_20181107_082946.jpg\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"><img decoding=\"async\" border=\"0\" data-original-height=\"1200\" data-original-width=\"1600\" height=\"240\" src=\"https:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-3SoaFRBS8zg\/W-NNdWqcC-I\/AAAAAAAAlb0\/9fScxCiQzfQy45KJzy_dokBO7h5r1wkdACKgBGAs\/s320\/IMG_20181107_082946.jpg\" width=\"320\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p>(Savouring a moment of fall beauty this morning!&nbsp; It is so good to live in Chilliwack where fall extends into November!)<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<div><b>Disclaimer<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I feel I need to preface this post reminding my readers that my life is much messier than my poetic words can make it sound.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I hope you realize that I write my \u201cfindings\u201d not because I\u2019ve now arrived and learned them; but, rather because I too need daily reminders to embrace them and placing them here in black and white facilitates that process.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Please remember, when I write I am in a good space.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am in my happy spot and I can find the positives in all lifes up and down.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I have had time to process the good, the bad and the ugly of my life and come out with a gem.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>But.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Oh but.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>To find that gem there is a bunch of ugly to sort through.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>The purpose of my writing is firstly as a therapy for me: spending time in a hobby that fills my soul. <span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp;<\/span>Secondly, I desire that my words serve as encouragement to those who read them.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I desire that the gems I\u2019ve uncovered through the muck of my life will breathe peace and joy into your lives.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Because I hope to encourage all with my words I feel I need to draw you deeper into my experience with me.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>While my story is different than yours, I remind you that we all have different stories.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>We all have different kinds of difficulties.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Through out our lifetimes life will present each one of us with insurmountable difficulties.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Though these difficulties are different for each of us, the human story is such that at some point this insurmountable difficulty will come our way.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>You and I are all comrades on this journey of life.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Furthermore, I hope today to show you a glimpse of my struggling soul.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am a performance driven perfectionist.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I like to achieve and achieve at the highest level.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Do you know what that means? No room for failure.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Do you know what that means?<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I don\u2019t like to give voice to the bad and the ugly of my life.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>On my journey of understanding myself better I seek to change this; however, outright here is my disclaimer: just like people put their best images on social media, so too I present the best of me here.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Please be gracious with me as I seek to bare the ugliness alongside the beauty.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am learning that the battle for the life I want is real and everyday.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Join me in fighting for it today, tomorrow, the next day and so forth.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>And in the process find grace.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Our Creator has a never ending supply of grace, I pray that you and I will let this grace wash over us today.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>XOXO<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am honored that all of you are journeying with me.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Isn\u2019t life better together?<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>The Good: Celebration (written yesterday in response to celebrating my kids\u2019 and my birthdays)<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am exhausted from celebrating.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>It was so good, so soul filling and so physically exhausting.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>This is life with young kids\u2026always so tired. Always.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div>It leaves me asking: was it worth it?<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Was it worth it?<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>This worn out, this spent feeling.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Was it worth it to celebrate my children and myself well?<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>(Still in the high of it all I reply to myself) Absolutely!<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>We were given this life to celebrate with!<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div>To celebrate firstly what Jesus has done, then to celebrate those people he has given us.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>To pour out our lives to this end for God\u2019s glory, coming regularly back to the fountain of life, Jesus so we can keep keeping on in this exhausting journey called life which when we pause demands our joyous celebrations!<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>So today I am exhausted, filled and renewed all at the same time.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I realize I have this: choice.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I choose how to respond to what motherhood throws at me.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>So as I return to the hair-pulling, mundane of mothering 3 youngsters, battling my own anxiety along the way, organizing activities and packing lunches and taming tantrums and mood swings and facing toilets that are getting scarier than Halloween, I have a renewed sense that I need to choose to pause and see that LIFE is so GOOD and this life of mine is an incredible, priceless, beautiful GIFT.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>This life\u2019s a grueling marathon; but I am choosing to let my life shine brightly so I do not lose the race! (Phil 2:16-17) And I am on mission to celebrate every km covered!<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Join me comrades! This race is epic!<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>End quote from my journal<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><b>Back to present day.<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Really?! I ask myself chuckling.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am so freaking tired in this moment.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I have been tired for 3 years and I am worn and I CANNOT muster spunk.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>I am glad to sit in front of computer and drink tea and let my introverted self just be, calmly, boringly, no hint of celebration, just BE.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Because what I feel in this moment is reminiscent of <i>this (excerpt from journal Oct 22\/18):<o:p><\/o:p><\/i><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>Who I really am<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am big and strong<\/div>\n<div>Brave and optimistic<\/div>\n<div>Stepping into the future with<\/div>\n<div>Hope<\/div>\n<div>Oh so much Hope!<\/div>\n<div>I have so much to live for<\/div>\n<div>I have so much left to give.<\/div>\n<div>I have so much to learn,<\/div>\n<div>I have so much to share<\/div>\n<div>I have so much to experience.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>In my mind I daily envision cancer being destroyed<\/div>\n<div>By God\u2019s mighty armies.<\/div>\n<div>Obliterated. Denied access. Penetrated. Confused.<\/div>\n<div>I envision strongholds around my healthy body fortified<\/div>\n<div>And nourishment- rich nourishment feeding my body and soul.<\/div>\n<div>(Having read that envisioning optimistic outcomes increases longevity)<\/div>\n<div>I envision splashing in the lake with my teenage children<\/div>\n<div>I envision holding my first grandbaby<\/div>\n<div>I envision cheering my son to athletic victory in high school<\/div>\n<div>I envision my daughters\u2019 weddings and beginning to know my daughter in law.<\/div>\n<div>I envision this all so optimistically.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>But when I pause<\/div>\n<div>I weep.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am so very weary from fighting.<\/div>\n<div>Oh how hard I am fighting. <\/div>\n<div>I am worn and I need<\/div>\n<div>REST.<\/div>\n<div>Desperately, I need rest.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I need that quiet field where I can lie in the soft grass<\/div>\n<div>And smell the flowers.<\/div>\n<div>Where sun warms my body and soul.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><\/div>\n<div>I need that space so quiet, so still, so unaware of time.<\/div>\n<div>A place where I am truly<\/div>\n<div>Quieted.<\/div>\n<div>Where all the tasks do not exist<\/div>\n<div>Where being is all that\u2019s asked of me<\/div>\n<div>Where life is beautiful <\/div>\n<div>Simply because its lived.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I want to lie in this quiet field<\/div>\n<div>Until my soul is full and jam packed<\/div>\n<div>With peace and inspiration<\/div>\n<div>Where I learn to live freely<\/div>\n<div>Uninhibited.<\/div>\n<div>Alive, like I\u2019ve never been before.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Oh God<\/div>\n<div>Take me to THIS field.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Take me to this place where I can see what I really want<\/div>\n<div>Where I can feel what\u2019s really inside<\/div>\n<div>Where anxiety cannot exist.<\/div>\n<div>Where sadness and anger roll in and fight within me so they can be <\/div>\n<div>Released.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>My God teach me this peace so <\/div>\n<div>I can bring it with me.<\/div>\n<div>Each step of my path<\/div>\n<div>Teach me how to sit at Your feet<\/div>\n<div>Broken.<\/div>\n<div>Worn.<\/div>\n<div>Confused.<\/div>\n<div>Exhausted.<\/div>\n<div>Unequiped.<\/div>\n<div>To wrestle with the discomfort of it all.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Oh God give me the strength and wisdom that I do not have.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>End quote from my journal<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I contemplate how to wrap up these 2 dichotomies; how to conclude today.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span>I think this might be it:<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>My celebrating self declares that how I choose to respond to life is a choice.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>She is optimistic and cheery, celebrating this choice.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>However, this choice remains the same in good <i>and<\/i> bad days.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>There are days when I am exhausted: emotionally, physically, both.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>There are days when I am at my wits end.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>There are days that anxiety clenches my throat.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>There are days that hope threatens to evaporate.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Most days faith does not come naturally. <span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/span>But in these days too, I have the choice of my response.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>(I am reminded of my 3 year olds who will scream and not do a task if I <i>tell<\/i> them to; however if I ask them if they want to clean up now or in 5 minutes, the choice diffuses their emotions.)<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I am empowered to choose my response in good days <b>and<\/b>in bad or sad days.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>This is the premise of the gratitude journal I have started; gratitude can be found everyday.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>And so\u2026 <\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I choose to savour all that life puts in front of me.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>(At a relaxation class yesterday I was learning the practice of savouring the moments of life.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Those who savour life are more satisfied with life.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>)<\/div>\n<div>I choose to enjoy celebrating.<\/div>\n<div>I choose to allow myself to rest.<\/div>\n<div>I choose to cling to the Hope of Jesus Christ.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>(And remember having choice doesn\u2019t make it is easy; but just like my 3 year olds, it helps diffuse the ugly, so we can get on with the good stuff.)<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>Isn\u2019t this life a crazy thing?<o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><b>Psalm 118:24 (Cheryl version):<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>This is the moment I have been given.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>The moments make up my day.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Today I choose to praise God for the gift of moments!<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span>Today I choose to be grateful in these moments.<span style=\"mso-spacerun: yes;\">&nbsp; <\/span><o:p><\/o:p><\/b><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Savouring a moment of fall beauty this morning!&nbsp; It is so good to live in Chilliwack where fall extends into November!) 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