I don’t know where to start.  I value clarity and feel I very likely will be missing the mark on this post, but…. oh well.  So much has happened in my soul this past couple

Today is MRI Day.This morning I had blood work.  As I waited at the hospital lab I felt my blood pressure creep up and up.  Stealing descriptors from my toddlers hospitals feel yucky to me

As I’ve opened myself to grieving the loss of my career, I optimistically survey my new realities and receive much clarity.  I see that for the most part the largest change in my life is

Celebrating 16 years of marriage!  Here's some pics of anniversaries over the past 6 years 😊Rayna came along for our 10 year anniversary to Whidbey  Island11 year anniversary, had our friend  fly us to Victoria

As I peel back the junk of my life my grief takes a different form.  My grief oozes to the surface as my armor of perfectionism, performance, and pride begin to crack.  Our society doesn’t

It feels like a lot has been going on in our lives lately.  Disappointment and grief over losing the future we had envisioned has cut us open.  Ryan says, “If we don’t have optimism what

As I intentionally seek God whole-heartedly, He is beginning to highlight, bit by bit, that which does not align with Him. As I peel back the sin, oh how clearly I can begin to see! 

Before you begin reading, Watch this video.  (Thank you so much to the incredible fire-fighters!!)What you see is a building and a water bomber and a plume of ominous smoke.  What I see is our

Good news from my MRI and a lovely appointment with my wonderful oncologist.  (He said as we were leaving: it's my secret hope that everyone is cured.  It's my hope to see this building empty. 

(FYI: MRI results tomorrow, I wrote this post last week on the day of my MRI)MRIHere I am waiting for my MRI.  I've started to despise coming to this hospital.  As the frequency widens my